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Down here in Nothingville Well…I feel


Down here in Nothingville

Well…I feel like a nothing, so I’m gonna call my place for this morning for Nothingville. I don’t really feel too good at the moment, which causes me to have problems doing everything I have to do within a brief moment of time now. I have to steady up quite nicely, because I think someone’s coming here to visit me today, but I’m not sure anymore. Last night may have changed it, though…I really don’t know.

I fell asleep crying last night. Kept bursting into tears, into my very dream. Didn’t want to wake up today. I was so happy in my dream. I was with Robert Plant, John Lennon and George Harrison. I do believe Paul McCartney was there somewhere as well, but I didn’t exactly hang out with him. There was a prequel to this part of the dream, but I do not recall it quite. I was happy there…

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The interviews are over and my judge is:


The interviews are over and my judge is:

Well, of course, it’s not my saying that has the most to matter, really. If neither one cares to call me back for a follow-up interview (they both need it), it won’t have a damn to say which one I preferred. But for the record: it was the first job.

The second job interview I was at today was a group interview. That basically means, you’ll be one out of tens to sit in a meeting room around a big table and listen to a PowerPoint Presentation until it’s everyone’s turn to stand up and say something about themselves. That’s…not really something for me. The job itself was never more temptatious than the first one anyway, so it’s really all okay. I’d never guess they’ll call me back to say I got the job on that second one either. I’m more of a one-on-one kind of guy when it comes to interviews.

Interviews are a lot of interviewing…


Interviews are a lot of interviewing…

At this moment, I’m sitting on my couch, after having been to a job interview. In two hours from now, I’m attending a second one. I might later today receive a call which states I am to go to another interview tomorrow, as a follow-up for today’s interview.

If, on the other hand, I’ll get called to say the follow-up interview on Monday, I will probably not be much outside my apartment tomorrow. I’ll just stay in and search for new jobs. I may even treat myself with a nice little movie or reading a bit more in “1984” by George Orwell (which I must say, despite not being too excited about starting it, I now HIGHLY recommend!). But that’s for tomorrow. Today, I’ll be interviewed and eating something…good. Perhaps I’ll test my relatively new oven for how it works on pizza. I love pizza and I love my new oven.

The really bad thing about doing so, is


The really bad thing about doing so, is that your WordPress doesn’t get good looking titles and there are only a lot of short posts, I found out… But I’m now testing something, because it MAY appear that HootSuite is clever enough to know that you can post far longer posts to your WordPress than to your Twitter, so if this one comes through, it will be great! Then I’ll perhaps post a lot like this.

Did you know: you can use HootSuite to p


Did you know: you can use HootSuite to post short messages like this one to your WordPress? As long as it’s 140 characters at the most

Rock & Roll


Title: Led Zeppelin – Rock & Roll

I chose this title because of the lyrics. “It’s been a long time since I rock & rolled. It’s been a long time since I did this stroll. Let me get it back, let me get it back, let me get it back. It’s been a long lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely time.”
So in other words, it’s a good description of my blogging. I haven’t blogged here in ages. At least it feels like ages. And that despite all the things that have happened.

But I’m not going to make a superblogpost now about all the stuff that’s happened. No.

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I thought a photo was in its place after having been away so long. Photographer: me.

What I’m going to do, is just to let you know I will soon be updating the page quite a lot. I’m thinking loads of more pages, more diversity to the site and really just make it into more of a website than a blog…with a blog.

I’ll let you know when I start. But it won’t be now, and it won’t be this weekend. No pressure, so may forget all about it.

Hope you’re all having a GREAT weekend!

No fucking poetry


Edgar Allan Poe is one of the best known autho...

Edgar Allan Poe. I once wrote a song about his death. And no, you can never get too much Edgar Allan Poe, so therefore his image is in this post. Image via Wikipedia

I tried writing poetry today (also known as “lyrics“), but it fucking wouldn’t work. I don’t have it in me at this moment. I have the potential of making a great instrumental song, but the lyrics? No, not today. Probably too much…no, I won’t say that. I won’t say I feel too shitty, because you can never feel too shitty for art. Art is supposedly better the crappier off you are. And I’m nowhere near a masterpiece, despite feeling pretty bad now. And I don’t have the courage to say it out loud. Or write it directly to someone. Therefore, I blog.

 

Will there in the future be so that pupils at school will have to read through blog posters blog posts? That would be something, wouldn’t it? But why not? If it’s a bit factual or lyrical anyways. Not just “outfit of the day”. That would be more for the cultural studies. It would be grand to be one of those they had to read. I hope it could be me. Don’t think so, but I still hope. I should really get around to writing that fucking book. No idea what it should be about though. It will be non-fiction. As in neither science fiction, nor past fiction. Guess the term should be something like…well, non-fiction. But that’s already coined for factual texts.

 

So I sit here, listening to the same song without any meaning, just because it’s soothing. Comforting even, perhaps. It has nothing to do with my mood. The lyrics are about some party. I really don’t care. The melody is just…calm. Calm and flowing. And then I don’t have to find a new song and a new band and a new album and a new genre all the time. It just is there. It can keep playing all night for what I care. Might change it eventually. Will not be satisfied with changing it, but felt it was what was expected of me. Probably. I was just sitting here in peace and quiet before I put it on.

Why must it be illegal to kill your parents, when they are probably the ones who deserves it the most?


Really. Why? If I had just gotten rid of them, many of my current problems would be solved. But sadly, it is illegal. To just be free from them…oh, the joy. If I was a child of divorce, maybe it would be easy to sneak away from them without anyone noticing. But I’m not. And they both seems to want me to stay, while saying they don’t want me to stay. They want to control whether my room is clean or not, whether it is an oral agreement on a job or if I have every single details in writing, whether I can be up in the middle of the night, whether I am to breathe or not… I’m so tired of it. The hand that feeds is rarely the hand you long for the most. You want to be free. Human is free by nature. It is not by society.

 

I want to be on my own. Face all my problems myself. Fuck you dad, I’m not going to ask you for money if I ever get into trouble. I never thought I would. You just fucking assume it. Just like you fucking assumed I wanted your help to move out in the first place. Why the hell am I not allowed to do things and manage things and work things out on my own when there are so many thousand people out there which are allowed this pleasure? Why can I not try to see if I am smart enough, and rather crash and burn than be held back by somebody else? Isn’t it better to learn from your own mistakes, than make far worse ones to get to the point where you want to be? I even have the means to manage if, by any chance, my plan should fail to succeed. I know how to cope. Why the hell can’t I show you?
I’ve been laughed at for ten years now. At least. Ten years of them laughing at the idea of me moving out. Not because of the idea in itself most of the time, but because they think I won’t be able to do anything when I’m on my own. They don’t realize that the reason I usually don’t do things, is because it is not my place, my things or my order. I thereby feel scared as shit to do anything about it. For a long time, I hated cooking food because I was afraid I was using products they had planned to use for dinner or something else. And I was afraid of ruining their frying pan or something. Or the fear of accidentally burning the whole house down. Instead of being comforted that none of these things would happen, they laughed at how little I was cooking and how all I would ever make when I moved out was boiled noodle soup and microwave pizza. It won’t be.

 

So, really, why must it be illegal to kill your parents, when they are probably the ones that deserves it the most?

I’m A Geek (Linux Mint)


Linux Mint

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Let’s just admit it right now. I’m a geek. I love geeky stuff. I like watching Star Wars movies, play with Linux, learn new things and just dig really deep in music history. Still, I’m not fully and completely a geek. I am other things as well, but let’s be honest: I’m a geek. Nerd. Whatever.

The reason I’m saying so now, is my choice of OS (operative system). I have a mini computer I’ve used the past month in my job. The last half of that month, I chose to use a little OS called Joli OS (formerly Jolicloud and the service it provides is still called Jolicloud). I had it running along Windows 7.

The little computer I have is a Packard Bell dot s. It was a demo computer, meaning it was cheaper for me than if I had gotten a “normal” one. I don’t know if you know how little this computer is, so I’ll tell you. It’s a 10,1″ screen and weights about 1 kilogram (briefly over that, I believe). The webcam included (by what I’ve tested it for taking pictures with) is working better than my Acer 17″ that is much MUCH more powerful in every way than the Packard Bell really is except for this little feature.

Now, I’m done with that job. It was a short job, and I knew it would only last one month. I was happy with using Joli OS, and was going to convert my mini computer into a “Jolibook”, but then I realized that our network connection at home is messing it up. Our network is a N-net with WPA2 security. This isn’t working well with things based on Ubuntu 10.04 (at least). This led me to keep away from this transformation, as it would be a real hassle a lot of the time.

But now I have turned my computer into a full Linux computer. Linux Mint. You never saw that coming, did you? I was even sniffing around on Fedora 16 (which I believe I was thinking of mostly because of its dedication to the late Dennis Ritchie, a man all of us really should be grateful for having lived) at a time, but I found their window management to be…falsely working for my needs. So I made a live USB with Linux Mint 11, and had it erase my old partitions and let it get my computer all to itself. And I must say: choice well made.

It’s based on Ubuntu, which means it’s got quite a lot of features which are already familiar to me. It’s easy to configure the way you want it to go. And it always lets you know whether your system is up to date or not (with something you as a former Windows user would associate with anti-virus programs…but you won’t need one when you’re a Linux user).

The only thing that annoys me with this is really the security. As a Linux user, I am used to my distros asking me a lot about me authorizing this and that, but what’s new here, is that when I get into this computer, I will need to unlock my WiFi! That’s annoying. That’s a waste of time. But still acceptable, as you’re still getting quicker into your system (with this included), than you do with Windows.

I’m not going to say this computer will stay being a Linux Mint, because I do like the idea of being allowed to change this one’s distro quite a lot, but we’ll see. Anything goes, right? But so far, I am satisfied. Loving the easy configurations, the working spaces, the design, the speed and…well…everything I’ve really tried with it so far!

If this sounds interesting to you too, but you don’t want to give up your Windows or Mac OS, then you CAN dual-boot with this! You may do this in several ways: You may simply go to their website, download the version that says something about “Windows Installer”, and here is your options coming up. Either, you can do as I do, and have a free 4 GB USB that you make into a “Live USB” (using UNetBootin) or you may use a tool for emulation, such as Daemon Tools Lite! Then you simply install it alongside your current operative system! Simple! There are probably TONS of more specific tutorials on how to do this (which I suggest you look into if this is interesting you).

Oh, and if you do not have the internet configurations I do, then you really should try Joli OS as well. Probably my favorite OS, and it’s probably the lightest I’ve ever tried!

Ryan Adams & Mandy Moore


Usually, I don’t give a damn about Hollywood couples. What I mean is, I don’t care whether they stay together or split up or whatever. They are usually just something that exists, but I sort of see it as only another show they put on to get more fans or to give some drama for the gossip magazines to write about. But there is one couple I hope stay together. I didn’t realize I cared too much about this either before I just now googled them. When I saw them together, I really felt “wow…these two really should stay together!”. And, which you’ve probably already taken from the title, the couple is Ryan Adams and his wife, Mandy Moore.

 

I am a huge fan of Ryan Adams, and as most people know, music (and arts in general) tend to get better with heartaches. But I feel Ryan Adams have already suffered enough. He has put out so much music that is so heartfelt and seems to have been through tons of shit. And now he’s married. And the last album he released (“Ashes & Fire”) was actually one of the best albums he’s ever made (and his wife is singing in the background of one of the songs)!

 


(The picture is taken from http://img.perezhilton.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/03/img_0826__opt.jpg so it seems it’s been uploaded by Perez Hilton)

 

I really wish all the best for this married couple. I hope they stay together for ever.

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